i spent most of the day yesterday fixated on the woman who was nasty and rude to me in a very public way in the check-out line at the library. ironically, it wasn't she who had me blinking back tears, but the kind librarian who expressed compassion and went out of her way to help instead of condemn.
but yesterday i barely thought about her.
no, yesterday, i obsessed about Lady Grouchy Pants. and wallowed. and internalized. and cried.
like, a lot.
i know, i know. over-sensitive much? you'll be happy to hear i've already applied for Thicker Skin and started a savings account for a lifetime-supply of MiracleGro.
that was yesterday.
today i'm thinking about Super Librarian and wondering:
what it is about human beings and the company of strangers that brings out the worst in some and the best in others?
i don't know the answer, but what i do know is this:
today i choose the latter.
today i choose to focus on the positive instead of the negative. today i choose to say thank you. today i choose to take a card + a token of my appreciation to the librarians at our favorite branch, AND i choose to write about it on my blog first, so i can't procrastinate, or worse--chicken out.
today i choose to put on my big girl pants and show Lady Grouchy Pants that mean girls are so yesterday + that small kindnesses can have a big impact.
(but i still think public libraries should have drive-thrus, don't you?)
update: well, i did it. i dropped off a dozen donuts at the library along with a card. i didn't know if i would see Super Librarian, so i also included a little photo of our family because i hoped she would recognize us and know that we were thankful for her in particular. the librarians were so grateful. and surprised! very surprised. i don't think anyone had ever done anything like that for them. later, after we got home, there was a message on our machine. it was from Super Librarian. she saw our photo, remembered us, and called to thank us personally. so now i know her name. but she'll always be Super Librarian to me. :)